Someone extremely close to me is gone. I won't go into details--I can't. But you can find out from Jason. I'm here right now just to let you all know I will not be back here again, to this forum. It seems meaningless to me now and no longer is important to me. I need some time to my self then will get on with my life. I wish you all the best and I thank you for being a part of my forum and my life. I'm removing myself from this forum but will leave it open for the rest of you. I'll be all right, but just need my space right now. Talk to you later. -Erik-
its been fun good luck in the future erik, and with that i too am signing off. i offically resign also. all you guys have been super. your friend the kid peace out guys
wtf done? everyone is now leaving? seriously, we once were a family, now...well...it seems we're nothing. my suggestion...i think we should build the place back up. with one gone...shouldn't that give us more reason to streghten the board? seriously...looks like we're all just gonna let our family die, all of us never to talk to each other again, never to know each other again...to just become memories, and nothing more...it seems quite pointless. i'll be here, those who wish to leave, do so. i'll still be here though, i'll still be checking up on this place, i don't want this to be an end, i don't want this family to just become memories
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
wtf done? everyone is now leaving? seriously, we once were a family, now...well...it seems we're nothing. my suggestion...i think we should build the place back up. with one gone...shouldn't that give us more reason to streghten the board? seriously...looks like we're all just gonna let our family die, all of us never to talk to each other again, never to know each other again...to just become memories, and nothing more...it seems quite pointless. i'll be here, those who wish to leave, do so. i'll still be here though, i'll still be checking up on this place, i don't want this to be an end, i don't want this family to just become memories
yea, i'm going to still stay aswell, i only said that for dramatic effect.....anywho, yea, i don't see why just because 1 person leaves, means everyone else abandons the site also. i'm with you, i'll still come back here, because i dont want this to end either.
thanks! i got one supporter, and you better belive ima force member who haven't been here in awhile to get their asses here. im determined to get this **** going again, even if erik isn't with us. besides, maybe if we can show there is a point to this place...he'll come back, maybe not, either way, worth a try, no?
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
i also think that if anything, we SHOULD be more active now that someone has left, like as a sort of "in memory" kind of thing. i mean, what do you think erik(or anyone) would think if they heard that everyone stopped coming here just because they left.
any e-mails, yahoo. aim, anything of former members should be contacted and get them here! belive me, im trying as hard as possible for this. i will get at least a few people back
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
Listen up...It's all over. Erik is not coming back. The only person he lived for is now gone from his life. This was his forum and he started it.
Now, it means nothing to him. I came here for Erik and only Erik. Not saying I didn't like any of you...I am thankful for most of you that showed up and stood by our sides. Now it's time to move on.
There is no point in trying to keep this alive. It was good while it lasted but nothing lasts forever. I wish you all luck.
well once again, im sorry for his loss, but just because this place is over for erik and its over for you, why does it have to be over for anyone who wants to stay? why can't we try and rebuild it in erik's honor? just because erik is gone, doesn't mean im not gonna try. consider it my contribution to erik, you got a problem with it, get over it. unless i am removed from this place for good, im going to keep trying to keep it going. you say its over. i say, i'll stay here till i die, and thats a promise, no matter what you say jas. sorry man, but i gotta try to get this place going again. one of us is gone, should that not be a reason for the rest of us to gang together and stay tough. besides, what if some day he should decide he misses this place, what if anyone who ever passed through here decides they miss this place, shouldn't there be something to come back to?
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
you dont get what Jason is telling you, you want to honor him. then do it like you said with your own forum. Kevin is gone forever, he ment everything to Erik. Erik is never coming back, if he misses things he is going to contact his friends through emails and texting. If you think yourself and jptrilogy can bring this back your both wrong. so why dont you just let Kevin rest in peace and leave Erik be you in human piece of crap. read your last statement you wrote as if in someone elses shoes, you would see how pathetic you and your brown nosing friend are. Jason your right, I did not come on here for these *******s. I did it for Erik who I consider a good friend, and yourself too.
wow, i'm so hurt.....not. anyway i'm not going to resort to your low-life, swearing, i'll have some common decency like jason does. and all i'm going to say is: you're wrong, me and fei will continue posting here even if it's just us.....in fact i'm going to make some posts right now.
thanks man. on top of having decency, sadly enough i did not even know kev died. for that...truely does suck. i am dissappointed that i was never told. as for staying here, seriously, did erik really make this place just for himself? though you may have no other reason for being here than erik, well, some of us are here for more than one person. oh, and to quote erik "I'm removing myself from this forum but will leave it open for the rest of you." i think that means we can use it...just a thought though
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
He left it open, yes....but with no administator monitoring, how would you make changes? Do what you want. Unlike you fei, we dont molest our family members.
I just came back to thank Paul for the back up and get his Email.
well yea, i'm always sad about hearing someone dying, but that's not going to stop me from coming to a forum to talk to people. and what changes? what do we have to change? all we're going to do is post stuff.
yeah, as a matter of fact i did. unfortunately i was molested for 10 years by my cousin and as a side effect i became so addicted to sex i ended up molesting my little brother and it actually drove me to the point where i almost commited suicide and even still im trying to deal with it because now i will never see my little brother again or ever see my little sister. to this day i still think about it daily and wonder why i don't just kill myself. but thanks jas, thank you for pointing out how horrible of a person i am and that i really shouldn't hold on to something that keeps me going. you must feel really great about yourself now huh?
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"who knows, maybe starting a new jouney isn't so hard, or maybe, its already started." -kh
i have 3 questions for anyone passing through.....
1.) if this forum is called "freedom of speech forum", then what's with the name-calling and such, just for voicing our opinion?
2.) is eric still going to use the internet? like, is he abandoning the internet altogether or just this one particular site? and if it's the latter, why just this site?
3.) i noticed jason, you've visited here last on the 18th, 16 days after you said you'd never come back. and others have visited as well.
this is erik. i'm using kevin's account because i closed mine. now, before everyone goes postal on one another, you all know by now kevin is gone. he died in a freak accident while doing what he loved. i just thought i'd come thru here for old time's sake to see if the forum was still alive. to clarify things, i was specific when i said i'm leaving the forum open so you all could continue. it would be fukked up of me to take it down after so many friendships were made. it will be open permanently so don't worry. i don't want you people to stop coming here or stop being friends because of me. the reason i left this (and all) forum(s) is because the fun just isn't there for me any longer. i've lost virtually all happiness in my life and i just can't get into socializing now when i don't need to. it's not personal against any of you. i consider you all my friends. i might drop in here once in a while just to look, but i removed myself from administration so it's a free for all now. i know kev would have wanted the forum to go on since he was the person i actually gave it to. so please take care of it. your friend, erik